As I was packing my things for my move, I realized how much I am still holding on to the portion of my past. I was cleaning out most intimate drawer and discovered that I am not as "pure" as the vows I made with the Lord.
My sinful past was deep rooted into sexual immorality and although, I have not broken my vows with the Lord or my "future" husband, I covered past up with clean things.
Matthew 7:6 - Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.
Sometimes we as saints, try to think for God like God....you seem busy right now, so let me handle this for you....I think I got this!As we try to be God, the Devil sits and watches and creep up in our relationships and our finances and we allow it to happen. We try to protect God instead of the reverse.
I realized that by keeping some of those things in my drawers as a just in case of emergency..... to protect myself....I was not trusting God!
I expected to be weak and for God not to be around to rescue me or "protect" me from my own urges.
I am supposed to be celibate, so why would I need to protect myself and from what? The Lord is my supplier!!
This was another time I had to put 100% trust in the Lord.
Believe me, I was praying like crazy, like dang Jesus I might need this one day lol....but I really don't need anything more than I need Jesus. So Goodbye adios past Hello Future!
As I threw away those things, I felt a sense of relief to this decision. No more hidden closets/drawers. No more allowing the Devil peek a boo aka pandora box attempt.
No more blemishes no more past coming at me from the sidelines.
I am washed in the Blood of Jesus and I want to continue to work on remaining that way but can you say the same?
