I am too afraid to love, Love?

For the past year, God has laid on my heart that I should do two things....create blogs speaking to other women and young girls about my story (testimony) and to inspire others to dig deeper into loving Him, my savior Jesus Christ.

I have been afraid that no one would read, listen or be interested.   You see my story isn't rosy.  No rose petals on the ground but I have years of pain, abuse and just living because God provided me with a promise.   His promise was that I would one day be a blessing to His Kingdom, that I would be in a successful relationships with a man and family, and that one day I would live abundantly.

I became afraid of that promise because what God was asking of me also to be exposed, to be real, to be open and to be honest.  All things that others have never been towards me.

I realized that what if I kept it real or exposed my heart to others or continued to be honest....will Love be there when folks start laughing at me?    Of course, He would but I was too afraid to say what I needed to say because I allowed the enemy to keep me fearful.  Being disobedience to Love is a no-no!!

I thank God for my husband, Mr. Romeo because his relentless pushing has annoyed me at times lol but he saw something in me that I wanted to hidden from the world.    I do have a shy, soft and sensitive side underneath this tough Brooklyn skin.....The biggest reason why I kept myself from this blog!

Because I was too afraid to love, Love?

You see.... I should know better that my God would NEVER leave me nor FORSAKE me.   Especially, when I am fulfilling His promise for my LIFE.  Duh!!!

 I am doing what He has created me to do and I do feel at peace right now.

So as of today, I have placed my entire life into His hands.  I will be writing, expressing and saying what He has asked me to say and do.   For in the end, He will be glorified!!

Awwww Love!!

So I have done a lot of things to Love, I have taken Him for granted, I have fell back in love with Love, turn my back on Love but Guess what Love always awwww loves me!

Recently, I have been re-evaluating my relationship with Love again....you see..... I got married in July and once you enter into a relationship with someone besides Love.   Well, He gets jealous! lol

He wants your attention on Him first and then the love from Him overflows into your relationship with others.

Sometimes I get it all wrong? LOL
I must admit it because my relationship with LOVE aka Jesus was a lil off balanced. But He loved enough to protect from worst, allowed me to lick my wounds and patted me on the butt and told me to keep going.

I am fortunate to have Christ as my savior and I am happy that He loves me even when I am unable to love myself.

I know I am rambling on today but awww Love is amazing.  I will be writing more on my Love.