Friday, July 9, 2010

Compassionate Love

You walk by the same unemployed or homeless person every day and never once said Hi or offer a quarter to him/her- Do you display compassion to your brothers/sisters?
A husband cheated on his wife but his wife stays with her husband and seeks restoration for their marriage. Should she be bitter towards her husband and not be compassionate even thru infidelity?
Folks you once considered, to be your friends, are now gossiping some of your personal business. Today, they have asked for your forgiveness, can you be compassionate towards them?
Recently, the Lord has placed on my heart the word compassion! Be compassionate! Show my love the way I do towards you! For years, I felt that people used my compassionate heart for being passive or a punk. I felt used for a while! I questioned why people would treat me cruel when all I did was display compassion!
But in this walk as a Christian, I am realizing that the Lord only rewards his saints and is never out to punish us. His heart is fully committed to being compassionate to his flock.
Matthew 1:41, " And Jesus, moved with compassion, put forth [his] hand, and touched him, and saith unto him, I will; be thou clean".
What a perfect example of how compassion truly works! Jesus, not only, acted quickly to the needs of his people, he touched their heart with his love but here's the best part.... He cleanse them from inside out!Hallejuah!!!
Both parties received and accepted something through having compassion! Guess what???? What?? They were cleansed of their past strongholds and healed in the name of Jesus! Hallejuah!
What a bargain to gain! A two for one deal from the Almighty God We serve! Only Jesus can convict, heal and cleanse all at the same.So the next time, you question being compassionate towards someone else who didn't exchange the same spirit, think of Jesus! Remember Matthews 1:41.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Do you still love me?

There are times in our lives when you question whether or not the Lord Almighty truly loves you!!
I will be as transparent as possible because I truly understand and I am struggling with those very thoughts.

How can the Lord truly love me? Why would He place me into a whirlwind of emotions? Why would He allow me to watch the bottom fall out from underneath the very people I love so much? What is he trying to teach me in this season?

I am gangsta right(LOL) so I went into the spirtual realm with tough questions, some multiple questions, yes/no and a few essays. I wanted my answers ASAP because I was hurting at the time and needed normalcy to relieve me of the insanity of that period.

All in a sudden, I heard His voice saying, Why would you think I didn't love you.....Did I not create you and made you for my image alone? Don't you ever believe that I forgot my vows to you!! Do you not think I am not protecting you from harm even NOW.....Remember I am God!!

When I wasn't saved, when things occurred to me which were less than favorable I usually fought back with anger or cried out (Lord), " Hey WHY WHY WHY ME(Lord)?Or What did I do to deserve this?"

But now, I know that these things happen to anyone who truly confesses that Lord Jesus Christ as their Savior.

Strongholds, persecutions, gossiping, bickering, and division in the Kingdom of God all happen because we do not battle against flesh but against the evil doing of Satan.

As I cried out to God on the behalf of my family....my initial prayer started out just praising the Lord asking for protection. I noticed that I cared less about my hurt or pain but more about the people who were involved.

I felt His presence in a way that is unexplainable to express but one thing, I do know is that, God is truly interested in our well being.

So do you really want to know what I am thinking? I know that He loves me!!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Am I engaged, Love?

I am still pinching myself that I am engaged to be married to J!!
I haven't writing anything in almost a year because so much happened.

Brief summary......Met a counterfeit, things ended because the Lord was like oh you should have known better then I was back single again....then bingo my best friend and now my future husband got the official green light from God to court me!!

Yes, I am betrothed to J!! Yay Yippey Yay!!

Sounds quick right? But to be honest...the time was progressively slow before the green light. Since the pain I endured, inflicted by others but mainly by myself....I had to deal with those issues with my Love, Jesus Chrust.

I had to allow him to handle those tough days when I just wanted to be left alone and I didn't want those parts to be exposed. I needed to be married to Christ Jesus first before He would release me over to my future husband.

My Love did reveal to me 6 months prior that J was the one but I am so against it!! LOL You see J was the only man I had ever trusted as far as my feelings about Christ. I could discuss my love for my Love and he never questioned me. The other folks, were still trying to find their walk with Christ and I was always defending my relationship with God.
Yall know the story about unevenly yoked relationship BINGOOOOO!! LOL

In fact, J loved my Love more than I thought I did at times. He was open about his love for Jesus! For almost 7 years, he was faithful to God, obeyed the Lord, didn't date anyone in the church...... remained single until he was released to me. Something about him was attractive but I was happy that we were friends I wasn't even thinking about him in that matter. I was able to be myself around J. I allowed myself to be transparent. Part of my transparency made J resist asking me out prematurely. He wanted for me to be ready or just didn't think I was ready!! Either one, the Lord gave him the green light!! How amazing this process has been. I can only say every day I am in awe of the Lord love for me. I am so humble but I do deserve it!! Sorry I would be lying if I said something else. I deserve and I love being in love!! LOL greatness

I am loving my courtship process. I am enjoying it and not trying to get all deep or overanalyze what He has done or give advice as well......I am just trying to bask in my engagement with J and with Jesus!!