Obedient Love

I have five weddings to go to in the next three years and I am already putting it into the atmosphere that one of them is my own. What!!
Wait, many of you are saying....Brooklyn, you ain't got a man of God yet? Smile

I am blessing myself folks, I am placing supernatural thoughts out there. I have struggled in the area of obedience with wanting a relationship for years.

I didn't obey God's wishes. I wanted to be like the rest of my friends who were boo'ed in long termed relationships. So I would date men who were infaturated or obsessed with me as their trophy girlfriend or wife. From my ex-hubby, son's father to others, I was not interested in them as a husband or a forever kind of relationship. I made myself think I was but I was not.

I thought that by sticking it out, I was being obedient to the relationship. Remember what I just said I thought.
Wrong because initially my reg flags from the Lord was RUN, GET OUT OF THERE, IS HE SERIOUS?, BE JUST HIS FRIEND, DON'T GO THERE, HMMM, HE IS A PLAYER!!

I have a visions or dreams from time to time. One of my close friends which I am in her bridal party, I prophetised her own life in 2005 to the T. She was not even dating anyone of importance. I kept telling her next year you will meet your future husband.
When I see visions of other people's lives, I get all excited but I keep saying to them be patient and wait on the Lord.

Oh my my my but do I listen to my own advice?...hmmm!!! I got my own vision recently about my own wedding and was like are you serious Lord?.... is that really going to happen to me.... I got all elated and wanted it to happen right then and there.
I wanted to run with it, find my man of God and go up to him and say, "so is gold, silver or champagne wine a nice color for our wedding theme?" lol

I was all excited and my friends was like, "what did God say to you?, Are you sure?, Wait, did you meet this man in your dreams?, Aren't you scared?, Who is this guy?, Did you see me there?, hmm, Brooklyn hmm?"

I got a great sense of discouragement instead of encouragement after discussing my vision. And I went back to the Lord and he was like I thought I encouraged you with the vision, insight and I wanted you to be patient. And you not WAITING. Listen to me ONLY it will happen.

Wow, I laid that onto the altar and BEGGED to be forgiven. "God, I am sorry cause I really loved my dress and was that Bishop? Please please hook it me up God!!" lol

I needed to learn how to be OBEDIENCE to God's will. You see my Lord will never fail me. He has delivered me out of some stuff yall so I know he got my man of God coming on a white horse with his handsome angel self.

Hymn section - How LONG shall I wait? Lord, how longgggg shall I waittttt on you, Jesus? LOL You see there I am being impatient again!!


But seriously, In Acts Chapter 4, Peter and John both was locked up in jail for the fact that they were identified as part of the 12 disciplines. A lame man who was healed by Jesus was like that's them two cats. They got locked up and instead of hiding, Peter and John was like oh yeah, they started shouting, blessing Jesus for his miracles he did on non-believers who became believers. The Acts chapter 4 speaks on their obedience to his Word which later they released from jail.

That scripture speaks to my soul because Release comes after being obedient to God's will. I welcome that release into the arms my man of God. What a wonderful wife I will be to him?

Obedience vs Disobeying my Lord Jesus Christ...hmmm....let me think? Have you read the Old Testament - Joshua, I Kings and II Kings, I Samuel, Genesis and Exodus?

God just boing out NATIONS like oh really hmm you gave me an offering with a specked animal, your burnt offering was lame, oh, you want to worship false IDOLS!!!!
God was like....hmmm you did not OBEY so you shall die!!

Side bar - Reading those books in Old Testament - I would never want to be in the shoes of a king or priest who just gotten that message delivered like oh alrightie God spoke!! I guess he was not playing with me!! LOL

God is God for REAL!!

So no, I will wait and obey but keep my visions and excitement to myself. Remember Joseph with his brothers.

Not everyone will celebrate your visions but that's another blog my brothers and sisters.

Divorce love

Tomorrow September 19th will be my 5 years anniversary of one of my most painful relationships...it is the day of my divorce finalization.

Although, I shouldn't have gotten married to my ex for numerous reasons, the date still reminds me of that dark season. I wanted to be OUT of that relationship without healing and I moved into another unhealthy relationship with my son's father. I was deceived twice in a period of 3 years. I went into shock for survival in my time of dealing with life. My son's birth was my beginning of a new life of understanding. I was able to work out my guilt, pain and heartache thru his birth. I saw my joy in his birth and that I needed to change the way I saw my own existence. But I just recently was able to place my insecurities on this broken relationship onto the altar.
I gather enough strength to honor that relationship thru my relationship with the Lord.
I am not reflecting on that pain which has been washed away by the blood of Jesus. I know that I will have a successful marriage with my future man of God. I am so excited about that day....I get goosebumps just thinking about it.