I have been pondering this entry since my two close friend's got married over the weekend.
Like a stratch record, I heard yet again about my puss face. My serious face aka my Mean face aka My Daria face)
My puss face even has nicknames which birthed Brooklyn, Ms Stank and The Black Daria.
I remember as a little kid (4 years old), my mother and grandmother being told,"Wow, she is so serious and quiet." And this concern was really a compliment to my family so I thought yeah keep them happy.
Another flashback, I was eight on a summer vacation in Trinidad. my father entered me into a fashion show contest. My mother protested. She said to my father, " hmm Stacy is going to embarass you? And my father thought she has more clothes than all of these little girls in this village.....she is going to model!
Hence in America, models do not smile while walking down the runaway. I decided I would walk like an American model. I thought my family would be proud. I didn't realize that they had entered me into a GHETTO Trini children contest. With the neck popping and the hips swinging. Needless to say, my dad and mom was not feeling me. I lost to a little girl from a third world country with absolutely no clothes.
I think the official puss face started from there.
I thought smiling was phoney. People only smile when they want something and to appease you...they smile.
So I disliked smiling. I would crack a smile after a good joke but never with a long smile. My doctor once told me you are already getting frown lines on your face....Smile
I was staring at her like huh I am good. Just not planning to smile like a dang fool to make YOU happy. LOL
Majority of the time, my puss face has nothing to do with what I am thinking.
I am usually thinking, hmm I wonder if, I can get that discount from CVS or I hope I am not late for Alex.....you know, nothing BIG!
But the minority of the time, everyone tries to reflect on puss face where I am in another world.
Like Dang, she is mean!
I am not talkative person with strangers....I am sorry, I still believe in not talking to strangers. LOL
I am very shy and a sensitive person. So this is why the statement about my puss face bothers me. Really who smiles all the time except for a clown? And what are you really hiding underneath that mask?
If nothing, then same here....I have a puss face but it is what it is! Now if I steups, rolling my eyes, or a lot of steam coming from my face. Run Forrest Run!! LOL
3 comments:
Smiling is a facial expression that shows your inner thoughts. "I smile because I am happy. I frown because I am sad." Smile/happy go hand in hand. You would lose out on life's blessing by people miss reading their 1st impression of you. Try to not post your family so negatively, it seems like you have no positive recollections of your childhood. Don't make the same mistakes you parents made because some day your child would be blogging the same about you. The positive side about you being locked up and wanting to be like your friends (1) you were not prayed upon at a early age (2) We knew where you were (3) We thought we were protecting you. Hope you don't make the same mistakes. It seems that you are feeling comfortable about testifying in public, without thinking when you say things it would hurt others. Not all of your family business should be up in these Bloggs. I am replying to this because you seem to be comfortable about writing a book on line. Shouldn't you at least leave some thing about your life so you can get paid for publishing it.
My blog are my re-collections of my own childhood experiences and I really do not believe anything is negative towards my family or friends. If so, I do apologize but I give all the glory to the Lord for what he has brought me OUT of and I am not embarassed nor ashamed to testify. My testimony will minister to others with or without being published.
Thanks for reading my blog entries.
Stacy this is a beautiful illustraction of how ones childhood experience can effect their facial expressions... I think many can relate to this Blog. I have yet to see the puss face from you but needless to say you do tend to smile for the camera in a whole lot on your faceBook photo's...Lol.. If I know for certain that I'm going to see you in passing and to avoid the pussface, I will make sure I bring my camera...Smile Stacy ... Keep these Blogs coming BK..Blessings to you Sista...
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